They are both 39.
They are both female.
She has two children, 12 and 6.
She has one child in his teens.
She is dying.
She is also dying.
She was diagnosed four years ago.
She collapsed four weeks ago.
She is trying to reconcile faith of a mustard seed, with doctors who say there is no hope.
She is wresting with a whole different type of despair.
She is trying to prepare her children for a life without her.
She has not seen her son in a very long time.
She knows that no one can or will ever love her children like she does.
She knows someone else has already been loving her son.
She and I talked about faith, love, hope, and heaven.
I held her hand and encouraged her step father to talk to her, she can maybe still hear you.
She is fighting, fighting, fighting.
She has already fought.
She is dying of breast cancer.
She is dying of liver failure.
She could not have prevented this.
She has been addicted to cocaine and alcohol for as long as anyone can remember.
She needs better treatment.
She needs better treatment.
She needs to know God still loves her.
She needs to know He always has.
No one expected her to die so young.
No one expected her to live so long.
No wonder God calls death the enemy.
Death robs anyone when it is least expected.
She is ready.
I don't know if she is.
Are you?
4 comments:
I love you're writing style. Thanks for that illustration...it should definitely go in your book (in which I will write a forward). I also decided when I write a book, I will have a whole other book of forwards for my one book:). That's beside the point. Thanks for sharing your experience and insight.
good grief allison. I can't even read these anymore. they make me bawl. You have the biggest heart ever.
I'm sorry I missed you this weekend. We were at some friend's house cheering on the Colts...and then grieving the big loss. I'll call you tonight.
I miss you.
Hey,I think I am ready but then those thoughts of Satan's creep in and say no you are not-you are not saved.
I found out yesterday that the small polyp they removed from my colon last week is cancer. Wow, cancer and I am only 40. This test wasn't even what I had originally went in for, but on a whim an emergency room doctor suggested doing it. Thank God for that advice because in 6 months it would have been extremely invasive.
So what now. Well I go to see the colon cancer specialist at the end of the month and I clinic to my God and know that no matter what he is good and he does love me and this is not of God but of my enemy.
In the meantime, I ask for prayer because I know the power of prayer and the love of God. Pray that no matter the out come God will be how I serve and follow.
I apologize for my misspelling in my first post-I have a lot of thoughts running through my head this morning. Change clinic to cling and how to who. Thanks!
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