I've joined the world of facebook. I'm still not sure if I like it or not. It feels like one more thing to do...and right now, I'm so not into that. Our weeks feel long.
Have you ever gone on a really long trip and laid down exhausted at the end of the day? You know when you think back and realize you were at home this morning and now you are in (fill in the blank). Then you think, was that just this morning? Yeah, that's how all my days feel right now.
Not bad days or good days. Just really, really long.
I haven't blogged much lately for the same reasons.
Today, I had a day off. It was nice. Micah and I hung out for a while this morning. It saddened me to realize this was the first day I've had with him since October. It made me more sad to know that I had to ask Chris about Micah's routine. I keep praying, praying, praying that God will open up a part time job for me. I know he's got plans...I'm just waiting to see them.
My heart is just holding a lot of things. I need to journal. Journaling makes blogging easier. Then I can at least organize my thoughts. But for tonight, for right now, I'm just going to ramble.
We registered Natalie for Pre Kindergarten a few weeks ago. Although she is ready, my heart is so not. I watched a video of her today, she had just turned two. I found myself wondering where that little girl went. And, even though she sat on my lap and watched it with me, I was really missing her.
Micah, well, he is Mr Laid Back, I'll do anything while you aren't watching. He is able to get up on all fours now and assume the prime crawling position. Our house is no where ready for this so we are scrambling a bit. It's so funny, with Natalie we did all the tricks to help her crawl. With Micah, we are just watching. She didn't crawl anywhere close to this early, so we figure, he's got time. Poor kid, maybe this is why second children aren't so driven...they aren't as pushed. Parents know better the second time around.
Chris and I had a wonderful date last Saturday. It was good to eat dinner without interruption. We actually had several conversations. It was beautiful.
Work, is still work and ministry is still hard. I love Hospice, I hate all the paperwork, productivity standards, and Medicare driven patient care. Enough of this.
I'll close with something I read on Megan's facebook...it spoke to my heart this evening, here's to hoping it speaks to yours as well...
Life breaks and falls apart, but we know these are Places where Grace is soon to be amazing.They may be unfulfilled, they may be unresolved,
But when anything that’s shattered
Is laid before the Lord
Just watch and see-It will not be Unredeemed
You never know the miracles the Father has in store
Just watch and see-
It will not be Unredeemed.Lyrics from Selah
